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Recently I decided I was going to focus on God, and it seems like it has been a light struggle. It seems, the harder I try to focus on anything, the harder it gets. For example, I tried to focus all eight work hours on nothing but work. Begin the day with a meeting entirely in the moment and present, but I found myself drifting to check my emails or my mind wandering. Or, if I had a project to get done and tried to focus on it, I found myself focusing on the next project before completing the one at hand.

Anyways, I decided this week that I need to focus on God, so I am. I woke up with the idea in my Spirit on Monday, and I started on Monday. I woke up, got dressed, got on my knees, and spoke to the Lord about my needs and wants. Talking to God every morning is the easy part, but then came lunchtime prayer. And I realized that I was ready to go for a walk instead or create a chef-inspired lunch suddenly! Instead, I got down on my knees and prayed, why? Because I made my heart up to focus on God this week, and I am not ready to explain to God that my meal or a walk was more interesting than talking to Him. Also, when I make my heart up, I need to stick to it. It was on my heart for a reason. Some blessings and messages only come through prayers and time spent with Jesus.

By focusing on God, I realized that I was superficially reading while I was studying the Bible. Superficial reading is when one reads with no thought or concentration, it is just words on the page. I discovered this as I was going through my Bible notes and talking to God about what I read and connecting the stories. I could not remember what some stories or scriptures were about or why it was important. So, I made up in my mind to go back through those moments and add notes and re-read/study those scriptures. I may have missed some important nuggets that will help me later or perhaps now.

It is kind of funny how my heart flutters when thinking about the power of prayer and the doors that God will open. Then as the week progressed, my mind struggled to stay focus on that power and excitement. Some days it feels like a war within my body. My heart says, “on your knees and bow your head,” and my mind says, “plan for lunch or the weekend.” LOL. I side with the Holy Spirit inside me that guides my heart, thus, falling on my knees and bowing my head. God is awesome, and there isn’t anything He can’t do.

I am so grateful for the job He provided me. It is going well, by the way. However, it is a little boring, but I figure it is because I am only two weeks into it, so we’ll see. He allowed me to breathe this morning and has blessed the process of the business that I am looking to start. I mentioned it before, but it is really on its way, sooner than later, so stay posted for updates. There are so many blessings that God has provided that I can’t name them all, and you may get tired of reading them, so let me get back to this idea of focus, see? I’m losing focus because of the joy I have inside.

The other day, I was determined to figure out and stay focus on a work task. I was ready to be focused on the task at hand, but then I had a headache, a crippling migraine. I kept my focus on the Lord, said my prayers, and took notice of how my migraine subsided; it was not going to win. Focus is important because it proves that I can put all of my attention on one thought, person, task, emotion, or feeling. That also proves that I can choose not to give any of my attention to negative people, thoughts, tasks, emotions, or feelings. The power of focus is another way that I am regaining or reshaping the definition of Rhonda.

Make sure to focus on something important to you, whether it’s God, a family member, yourself, or your well-being; it is essential. I hope your heart will flutter like mine does as I experience the power of prayer and the power that God has given me to break another chain!