Faith Over the Things People See

I recently went to a new hematologist, who said that I should be on preventative medication. A medication that could provide me with a better quality of life. I am not against preventative medication, but if I am already experiencing a better quality of life without the medication then why would I need it? We proceeded to have a deeper discussion about the positive effects of the different medications and when I asked her if life could be guaranteed she said, no.

I am not afraid of dying, I am afraid of dying without having all of my items in order. I will be leaving behind the best person that God has ever introduced me to, my sister, and she being my best friend and I hers, would have no one left. Our family is not the type one would want to be left with, so I have to make sure things are in order so she can live with independence and no stress.

Anyway, I told the doctor, if God calls me home in five minutes, no medicine would be able to prolong my life. She mentioned that I may be healthy now but in the next ten or fifteen years my health could decrease. Well, I would be older, and maybe not. I am living my best years now and that is what matters. My time is my time.

I have faith that the things she sees could happen, will not happen. I acknowledge that God made people to be doctors to assist me in managing my health, but managing does not mean owning. I know what God told me when I was sixteen. I have accepted a healing that I walk in daily. I know that my God is greater than every health issue that COULD come my way, and I know that doctors are here to assist.

She ran some blood work and said the results showed that I have protein leaking from my kidneys. That is a sign of kidney failure, according to Google. Well, I have faith over that test result and all of its implications as well.

Faith is the belief in the things one cannot see. It is the action of continuing to move forward in the direction that Christ calls one to move. And I am moving forward believing that I have been healed and will remain healed.