Revival

I have honestly felt dead for so long. I have felt that nothing matters, not because I did not want to stress about it but because if I am dead, then nothing should matter. Every time, I tried to care about something and share my feelings or thoughts they were brushed off like, no, it is not like that or you need to just relax. Well, it was like that and I did not need to relax, I needed to be revived. I needed a person to listen, to understand, and to acknowledge that what I was going through was valid, otherwise, let the people go. It is hard to come to life after death. It is hard to focus on life and acknowledge all of the things going right when it seems like so much is going wrong.

I have been out of work for the past two months looking for a job. I have not had any money for the past three months but God has made a way for my bills to remain paid with no disconnection notices. A little bit ago, a job called me out of the blue because of the impression I made on the hiring manager during an interview. I accepted the job, relieved that I would soon have income again to cover my expenses and go grocery shopping. Well, I was surprised to learn that I would be paid twice a month instead of every two weeks, which makes a difference. I received my first disconnection notice and said, Lord, you handle it. And He did.

I found myself shaking the dirt off of me after being buried in my emotional grave. I have experienced God in ways, that were very familiar. He has held me close, allowed me to hide within His secret place, protected me, and has poured life into me day after day. I have stood outside and cried looking up at the heavens letting it all go. Sometimes, there is only one person who is able to completely and wholeheartedly understand me, and that person is God. I know He looks down on me and smile, because I feel it, I see it. It is one of those things that you and only you would know.

After shaking this dirt off and realizing that I have been revived, life has looked different. It is almost like I have been washed in the blood all over again. I am able to see clearer, think clearer, and understand more. I know that the job I have now is part of my revival. There are so many opportunities at this place that it will end up being my career and I will be successful according to me. I know that my life is about to look very different from how it did previously. I know that the way I speak to myself, others, and God will be different. I know that the way I thought before will be different, as I am focused and ready for what God has for me. It is my season.

I want to encourage everyone to fully trust God, and watch Him. Accept all that He has for you, as it may be your season as well. And if it is not your season yet, hang on because it is on its way. Continue to pray for the world and everyone in it as every day is becoming crazier but do not get distracted, because blessings are on their way. Speak hope, prosperity, life, and victory over your situation.

I spoke it and felt the chain loosen, then shortly after, I felt it fall. Thank you, Lord, for assisting me in disencumbering another chain.