Metamorphosis

There is something so powerful in realizing who you are and standing firm on your beliefs. I have found my inner power, which continues to boost my confidence. If I had the opportunity to talk to the previous version of myself, I would let her know that the only thing that matters is being faithful to God and aiming to be righteous. I am sure that I would not have believed it. As I look in the mirror, I barely recognize my reflection in a good way. I appear poised. Standing tall, looking myself in the eyes, I speak positivity over my life and stand on God’s promises. She trusts that everything will work out in her favor despite the outlook. Through this transformation, I have faced my deepest fears, reflected on the beliefs that have caused doubts, and questioned who I am. This process was not easy, looking back. It caused me to be comfortable with the uncomfortable. I practiced self-love, built my confidence, forgave and forgot, and focused on heaven. I continue to do these tasks as well as enjoy life.  

Those fears ranged from being afraid of the dark and the monsters that lurk in the corners to speaking up for myself in any setting. Those beliefs ranged from believing I was mentally, physically, and emotionally weak to not feeling worthy. I learned to stop the negative self-talk, by first truly listening to what I say to myself, then responding with the opposite or acknowledging the outcomes and going for it anyways. I would rather be a person that tries instead of one that says, I should have, as I have done in the past. Reflecting on who I was at that moment and comparing that to the person I wanted to be was difficult. I imagined myself better, braver, nonchalant about problems, a person of action, and a person that stood up for myself and others. I imagined myself confident and ready to take on whatever came my way but instead, I was an avoider and felt better in the corner not being noticed or heard.

As I tell others, if you are not uncomfortable you are not growing. So, I took my own advice and decided to step out of the corner and speak up. This is the transformation. A healthier, confident Rhonda, who is not afraid to say no or provide an opinion. I also learned that sometimes, remaining quiet is also a power that many do not possess. Some people always have an opinion when oftentimes it is better to remain quiet and listen.

I have never felt better! I am not afraid of what the future holds or the problems that will come with it, because I know Jesus Christ walks with me, so what is there to fear? One of my favorite Bible verses found in Matthew 10:28 is, “Do not be afraid of those who kill the body but cannot kill the soul. Instead, fear the one who is able to destroy both soul and body in hell.”   As I go forward as this new transformed person, I have found that I fill a sense of freedom, from expectations, people, and all of the evil that blankets Earth. I pray that everyone gets to experience this sense of freedom in some fashion as it is time to be positive and focus on oneself and the Lord God Almighty.