Life Update

So much has happened in the past three weeks! I will not write everything as that will take a long time to write but I will highlight the weeks.

Three weeks ago, I was talking about how I will not drown and I am so grateful that Jesus Christ provides banks for me to rest on and peace for my mind to relax. I am so glad that I have learned to show myself mercy and patience with my circumstances and with the people that I cannot control. The Lord is awesome!

Two weeks ago, I was furloughed. It was announced to me over Teams. I could have cried, gotten angry, or even say that I was surprised but I was not any of those things. My new favorite song is called Lord I’m Trusting by Chester D.T. Baldwin. I am a firm believer that God will test me to find out where I am in my relationship with Him. For example, I will say, “I want to trust the Lord with my finances,” He will do something to find out if I really trust Him with my finances. Anyways, I told Him I trust him in all aspects of my life, including my finances and career. Well, I was released without a warning from my Director or Manager.

But God told me in advance and I had begun to apply to other places. I went to the Director and asked him if they were going to lay off people in the office because they were laying off people in the Plants. At that time, he said no and he does not think so. Well, here we are two weeks ago and HR and the Director call me over Teams. “Rhonda we are letting you go, effective today.” Just like that. And, “Do you have any questions?” I replied, “No, it is a lot to take in because I asked the Director but I knew it was coming. I will trust in the Lord. Thank you for this opportunity and time at X company.” The reply, “Thank you.”

Then my computer locked me out and I had no access to my personal files or anything. Luckily, since I knew this was coming, I had taken all of my physical notes home and had minimal at my desk to pick up that night. Ever since that day, my mind has been at peace. Honestly, at peace. This is the most peaceful I have ever felt being out of work. I have not lost sleep, cried, yelled, had regrets, or beat myself up. Self-love has made a tremendous difference in how I treat myself. I love it! I love me! I love Jesus Christ! He is my everything.

During this time off, I have spent money as if I still have a job and still do not feel any regrets. My youngest sister, who lives with me has a job and the timing is just perfect. I have continued to look for a job and I know a good one is coming but I am not stressing about landing one.

Last week, I found out that my eldest sister had a role open and did not offer it to me but offered it to a person that she considers her niece instead. I was not upset in fact; I am glad she did not offer it to me because we would not work well together. She holds this niece to different standards than the people in her blood family and I am not one to hold back what I have to say to her. My mom was very upset that she did not even mention it to me but I told her, to let it go. The only one hurting is her because my sister is over it already. My eldest sister does not acknowledge the pain she caused or even felt she should have brought it up knowing that I am looking for a job. But my God is good. It is important to forgive people and let them go. I cannot and she cannot control anyone else, so let them go and let God.

Also, last week my youngest sister started her job and she loves it. I keep praying that it stays that way. In short, God is good and there is no one greater! I refuse to worry about things that I cannot change and I will stay focused on God and the tasks at hand. Like applying so He can provide me with one of those opportunities because I know it is coming. That’s the kind of God I serve.

Stay blessed and safe!