Prayers Answered

What a whirlwind the past week has been. In the past week, my body had begun to act out in ways that were unfamiliar to me. I felt like I lost my mind, lost control of my body, lost control of my life, and lost sight of my values and God.

I had thorns poking me internally and was bleeding out in every aspect of my life. I did not want anyone to see the pain I was in or my gashes, so I hid them with smiles, laughs, and conversation with a peppy tone as if all things were okay. I took physical medicine to slow the painful bleeding and heal the gashes, but yet, they remained. Nothing worked. Finally, someone noticed that I was cut and bruised because it was getting harder to hide the pain I was feeling and suggested going to the hospital. I refused and spoke to God, not out of necessity but out of wonder, of what I did wrong to bring this pain to my body.

I know many will not believe what I am about to write and that is okay. I will continue to pray that everyone one day will hear and recognize the voice of the Lord. On Thursday, January 26^th, 2023, as I was walking up my stairs, I heard the Lord tell me, “stop saying you do not know who you are”, before I could reply, He said, “confusion is one of the devil’s weapons.” I pondered that warning and thought about those in the Bible who were unsure of their mission, identity, and how God set them free. I thought about my values and then the voice came again and said, “the problem is that your values do not align with your life.”

Many times, I have heard people say when their values did not align with their lives they were unhappy, unfulfilled, and were not living as they felt they should.

Every Saturday, my mom and I have Bible Study at 10 am. My pains were lightening up by now but were still present. When we joined the call, we began to talk about everything I was going through and the things she was going through. Then she began to pray, and I received and claimed my healing; by the time, the prayer was over, she felt better and so did I. No pain was present, and I searched my body for it. I would like to say that I was not tricked into feeling like I do not know who Rhonda is, but I was.

I know who I am, however, I am on a journey to find out what I enjoy as hobbies, not my identity.