It is incredible how a person’s perception shapes their reality. Perception is how one views the things around them and interprets them internally. For example, when I was faced with an ultimatum just about two weeks ago, I perceived that the Manager was willing to fire me to get me off her team. However, the reality is that God was telling me that my time at that company was complete, and it was time to move forward and obtain a career that I have always dreamed of having; working internationally. Reality is tricky because my truth may not be someone else’s truth, but that doesn’t make it any less of the truth or my reality.
As I continue to disencumber the chains around my mind, I have to be careful not to put a different set of chains on, such as the heavy limiting chains that may try and convince me that I do not have the skillsets needed to be ready for my next role. With me letting go of my old job by choice instead of being forced, I loosened the chain of allowing someone else to control my reality. Only I am able to control my reality; when I let someone else control it, I am giving away my power and chaining myself to the thought of feeling like someone needs to validate my worth and value. I broke the chains of feeling undervalued, underappreciated, powerless and trapped by stepping out of my comfort zone and applied to another company in another city with a job description that fits what I want to do.
I chose to align my perception and reality by believing that God works all things out for my good. Therefore, I continue to try and have a positive outlook on life even though some days it is hard. It was interesting that during my alignment, I had to let that entire situation go physically. I realized it by crying about the unfair treatment and the ultimatum that I was given to either take a job that I would hate or leave by force. Oh, but when the tears stopped flowing, and the conversation with God was all done, I found myself repeating the words, “all things will work out for my good.” I know that to be true because God hasn’t failed me yet.
Throughout this portion of my journey, I realized that I finally love myself too much to remain in a toxic and physically draining position. My life and time are valuable, including the jobs that I decide to take or reject. The company chose to side with the Manager, and I decided to side with my values and worth. Thus, I decided to walk away into another role with a company that provides me with the experience to take the next step within the international sector. The problem with this company is that they do not pay as well as other roles in the market.
My perception is that I will do well in this company while gaining the experience that I seek. Even though this company may not pay enough to cover my bills, I believe that God will take care of me. Therefore, I will remain at this company until God says otherwise. I know there is a reason why I am here at this company; perhaps there are many lessons to learn, both in Christ through faith and in the professional field. As I continue to disencumber chains that are sometimes subtly placed, I will be sure that my perception of my reality is the reality that God has in store for me. Whereas I see money problems, God may see an opportunity to allow me to trust in Him even more while providing me with the experience I need for my next international role.
Disencumbering my Chains 