Rekindling

A little while ago, I forgave everyone that I felt wronged me in one way or another. Then for the past two weeks, I realized that I did not have much to say that is of value, so I decided not to write. Now, I have something to write about. I recently decided that I wanted to rekindle one relationship, the relationship with my mom.

Although my mom has been there for me ever since I can remember she has also been a bit overbearing. I will not go into details, but I decided that I would invest the time and energy to truly build a relationship with her. Through this relationship-building, I have discovered that my mom has feelings, and she does try her best to be a good person. However, old habits die hard. I have also learned that some people will attempt to make things ‘right’ for themselves by hurting a person when they seem weaker.

My mom has tried over these last 12 to 10 years to do better as a parent and sadly, I am just now noticing. Even though it took me a while to realize her attempts at being better I have found that she will get there with encouragement and love. I will not on purpose make her feel less or like she is the same old person because she is trying to be a better-updated version of herself. It is powerful to see my mom, who was weakened by many of her demons to break free and shake off the ones that were not glued to her. It is also powerful to watch her battle the ones that seem stronger than who she is trying to be.

I remember to keep boosting her up. Celebrating the small and screaming our battle cry to the ones that try to grab her and drag her under. With God all things are possible and one day she will be free from all of her demons and like me, we (her and I) will not only hear but feel our chains fall from our necks, hips, and feet.

I am so glad that I am rekindling this relationship with her and getting to know the better version of her.

Go MOM, remember you got this! It is never easy, but it is always worth it. God is always right there with you and I will always have your back! 😊